कितना प्यार करते हो मुझसे..?

कितना प्यार करते हो मुझसे..?
तुझसे भी ज्यादा
ख़ुदसे भी ज्यादा
सपनों से ज्यादा
अपनों से ज्यादा..

कितना प्यार करते हो मुझसे..?
अपनी मुस्कान से ज्यादा
हौसलों की उड़ान से ज्यादा
गर्व की ऊँचाई से ज्यादा
ख़ुद की परछाईं से ज्यादा

कितना प्यार करते हो मुझसे..?
फूलों पे भँवरों से ज्यादा
किश्तियों के किनारों से ज्यादा
सूरज की किरणों से ज्यादा
समँदर के लहरों से ज्यादा

कितना प्यार करते हो मुझसे..?
मुमताज़ के ताज़ से ज्यादा
धड़कनों की आवाज़ से ज्यादा
प्यासे के प्यास से ज्यादा
दिल के सारे जज़्बात से ज्यादा

कितना प्यार करते हो मुझसे..?
राधा के श्याम से ज्यादा
मीरा के घनश्याम से ज्यादा
सीता के राम से ज्यादा
पूनम के चाँद से ज्यादा

कितना प्यार करते हो मुझसे..?
ख़ुदा की दुआ से ज्यादा
प्रभु की कृपा से ज्यादा
मनोहर की मुरली से ज्यादा
बड़ों की ऊँगली से ज्यादा

कितना प्यार करते हो मुझसे..?
आईने के श्रृंगार से ज्यादा
आँखों के ईंतजार से ज्यादा
होठों के इकरार से ज्यादा
पायल के झनकार से ज्यादा

कितना प्यार करते हो मुझसे..?
ख़्वाबों के पहल से ज्यादा
रंगों के महल से ज्यादा
शायरों के कलम से ज्यादा
कवियों के गज़ल से ज्यादा………..

Ek ummeed…

kal wo aa rehin hain milne mujhse ,ek ummeed …
aapne saath aam aur mirchi ke aachar bhi layengi,
durga ashtmi ka prasad bhi layengi,
jinhone mere liye naye jeans aur shirt kharide honge
jinhone nimki,thekuwe aur chura fry bhi banaye honge
kal wo aa rehin hain milne mujhse ,
ek ummeed …

kal wo aa rehin hain milne mujhse ,ek ummeed…
jo tawe pe garam phulke banyenge
phir ghee me chupod ke plate me parosengi
plate se utha ke mere muh me bhi khilayengi
kitchen ke sare dabbe sajayengi
phir mera zid karne pe mera favourite sattu aur aaloo ke parath,kheer,sevai
mere kamine doston ko bhi khilayengi
kal wo aa rehin hain milne mujhse ,
ek ummeed …

kal wo aa rehin hain milne mujhse ,ek ummeed…
jo mere dono kano ko chu kar usske maail nikalengi,
jo mere badhe huwe baal pe daant lagayengi,
jo mere haath aur paon ke nails ko katwengi
jo mere sar me sone se pehle teel layengi
jo mere sare kadpde almari me sajayengi
aur mere thankne ke baad mere dono paaon bhi dabayengi…
kal wo aa rehin hain milne mujhse ,
ek ummeed …

kal wo aa rehin hain milne mujhse ,ek ummeed…
jo mere khusi ke liye har mandir,mazar aur gurudware pe sar jhukati hain
jo har pandit,fakir aur bhikhari ko mere ashirwad ke liye  har baar bhar bhar ke  daan deti hain
jo har mahine me mere liye  anginat upvas rakhti hain
jo mera maan ghabrarane pe shiv ji ka babhut mujhe lagati hain
usse bhi theek nehi huwa to mazar pe sar jukwati hain
aur bayen baju pe aur gale me tabbiz bhi pehnati hain
kal wo aa rehin hain milne mujhse ,
ek ummeed …

kal wo aa rehin hain milne mujhse ,ek ummeed…
jo bachpan me ek sari pehan paise bachati theee aur uss paise se mujhe tution padahte theen
jo khud bhooka rah ke mujhe khana khilati theen
jo khud thand me kikud kar mujhe chadar odahti theen
jo bizali jane ke baad hath wale pankhe se hawa kar ke mujhe sulati theen
kal wo aa rehin hain milne mujhse ,
ek ummeed…

kal wo aa rehin hain milne mujhse ,ek ummeed…
jo jati,dharam,rang,bhasa ka koi bhed nehi karke ke mere pyar ko apnanti hai,
jo mera dil toone ke baad mujhe sambalti hain
samjahti hain,mujhe manati hain aur hasati hain ,ek nayi aas bhi dilati hain
mere rone pe wo roti hain ,mere hasne pe wo hasti hain
khud bimar rah ke bhi mere preshan na hone ke liye phone pe kuch nehi batate hain
kal wo aa rehin hain milne mujhse ,
ek ummeed…

kal wo aa rehin hain milne mujhse ,ek ummeed…
jinhone zindgi ke sare kast sirf mere khusi ke liye uthaye hain
jinhone sare kamaye huwe paise sirf mere tarakki ke liye lagaye hain
jinhone aapni aadhi neend mere tabiyat aur padahai ke liye jag jag kar udayeen hain
jinhone aapni khoon,passene,aas aur ummed se meri zindgi banaye hai
maine aasman wale bhagwan ko nehi dekha
per kal meri bhagwan aa rehi hain
kal meri maa aa rehi hain
kal meri ummed aa rehi hain…….

Ab jarrorat nehi hai….

Ab jarrorat nehi hai….
Tere har baaton ki aur meri har mulakaton ki
Tere har chahkene ki aur mere har behakne ki
Ab jarrorat nehi hai….

Tere har jikr ki aur mere har fikr ki
Tere har khayal ki aur mere har sawal ki
Ab jarrorat nehi hai….

Tere har aarz ki aur mere har farz ki
Tere har didar ki aur mere har intezar ki
Ab jarrorat nehi hai….

Tere har muskan ki aur mere har arman ki
Tere har yakin ki aur mere har wajah ki
Ab jarrorat nehi hai….

Tere har dar ki aur mere har dard ki
Tere har shikwe ki aur mere har shikayat ki
Ab jarrorat nehi hai….

Tere har kahmosiyon ki aur mere har ladayion ki
Tere har roothne ki aur mere har manane ki
Ab jarrorat nehi hai….

Tere har haqikat ki aur mere har khawab ki
Tere har uljhano ki aur mere har jawab ki
Ab jarrorat nehi hai….

Tere har nazarandaz ki aur mere har dhyan ki
Tere har maaun ki aur mere ander uthi har toofan ki
Ab jarrorat nehi hai….

Ab sach kahun to,
Tere aane ki aur ab jane ki
Tere har iqrar ki,izahar ki aur inkar ki
Aur Tere har pyar ki
Ab jarrorat nehi hai….

Samajh se pare ….

Samajh se pare hai samajh teri
Samajh se pare hai samahj meri
Mere liye tu shanti
Tere liye mai yudh
Mere liye tu kavita
Tere liye mai nirarth
Mere liye tu bhivasya
Tere liye me guzra huwa kal
Mere liye tu abhiman
Tere liye mai kayrata
Mere liye tu dhoop
Tere liye mai shard raat
Mere liye tu kashti
Tere liye mai samandar ki tufan
Mere liye tu humsafar
Tere liye mai saya
Mere liye tu manzil
Tere liye mai sirf rasta
Samajh se pare hai samajh teri
Samajh se pare hai samahj meri

Mere liye tu sach
Tere liye mai jhooth
Mere liye to dawa
Teri liye mai zehar
Mere liye tu khawab
Tere liye mai haqekat
Mere liye to roshni
Tere liye mai andhera
Mere liye tu ghamand
Tere liye mai sharm
Mere liye tu sapna
Tere liye mai sach
Mere liye tu aashirwad
Tere liye mai shap…
Samajh se pare hai samajh teri
Samajh se pare hai samahj meri

Meri liye tu ibbadat
Teri liye mai gali
Meri liye tu zindgi
Teri liye mai maut
Meri liye tu sazda
Teri liye mai haram
Mere liye tu dariya
Tere liye mai pyas
Meri liye to khusi
Teri liye mai dukh
Mere liye tu dawa
Tere liye mai rog
Mere liye tu mohhabat
Tere liye mai nafrat.
Samajh se pare hai samajh teri
Samajh se pare hai samahj meri

Mere liye tu aakash ki unchai
Tere liye mai patal ki ghari
Mere liye tu aalow ki garmi
Tere liye mai sardi ki kapkaphat
Mere liye tu ragistaan ka pani
Tere liye mai ret ka samandar
Mere liye tu sabse samajhdar
Tere liye mai sabse bada pagal
Mere liye tu meri ummed
Tere liye mai sirf nirasha
Mere liye tu Jade ki sunhari dhoop
Tere liye mai garmi ki bechani
Samajh se pare hai samajh teri
Samajh se pare hai samajh meri

Mere liye tu to subah ka ujala
Tere liye mai shaam ka andhera
Mere liye tu jeevan
Tere liye mai mritu…
Mere liye tu arth
Tere liye mai anarth..
Mere liye tu prem
Tere liye mai jati ka bandhan
Mere liye tu apnapan
Tere liye mai dharm ka oochapan
mere liye tu  sundarta ki murat
tere liye mai bhasa ki ghrina
Samajh se pare hai samajh teri
Samajh se pare hai samajh meri

Barsat aur tum

Ek roj aachanak se meri zindgi me aaye tum bilkul barsat ki tarah
Hasti huwe ,muskurati huwe ,khilkhilati huwe,machalti huwe,swarte huwe
aaise jisse na koi rok sake ,na hi koi tok sake
aapne hi ummangon me madmast ,bekhabar,aalhad si
jo jindgi ko bhi jeene ka dangh shikha de,
un oons ki boondo ki tarah jo subah ki ghason pe,
patton pe padte hi unko phir se hara kar de ,
zinda kar de……..
Ek roj aachanak se meri zindgi me aaye tum bilkul barsat ki tarah…

Ek roj aachanak se meri zindgi me aaye tum bilkul barsat ki tarah
jo aaksh se beparwah giri,aapne boondon ke saheliyon ko le ke
nachate huwe ,jhoomte huwe ,kahkahe lagate huwe
meeti ki pyas bhujane ,
thik usse tarah jis tarah tum aaye thee meri zindgi me,
aur badal diya mujhe,
ab nayi zindgi ,nayi khusiyan ,nayi tarang aur naya umang hai,
tumne aakar maan ko chuwa, rooh ko sparsh kiya
ab dil kya ,dhadkan kya,aatma bhi teri noor ki ujali roshni me lipat ke jagmaga rehi hai,
jaise poori jahan ke phool aapne rangon ko bikher rehi hai,
ab teri muskurahat ko dekh ke muskurata hun,hasta hun ,gata huwa
ab naye aas ,naye sapne,naya joonon hai,
na koi fikr hai , na koi ghamand hai,
na jeetene ke lalach ,na khone ka gum hai
ab har jagah sirf tum hi tum hai ,aur tum hai….

Ek roj aachanak se meri zindgi me aaye tum bilkul barsat ki tarah
per aaj tu khud barsat me bheegi huwi thee,
boondon se lipti huwi thee,
thodi geeli si
aapni ghoonghrali laton ko suljahti aur bikharti huwe
maano swarg ka darwaja khula aur khud shiv ne seedhe banaye
aur tum mere samne aayee,pyar ki ghariyon me le jane ko
tumhare aane ka sukh sayad amrit ko pane ke sukh se bhi jayda thaa
aisa laga ki zindgi me ab kuch nehi chiyee
rom rom khil utheee,dhadkane ragni gane lagi
aur barsat ki boonde bhi aapni sangeet se ,
sur se ,uss samay ke lamhey ko sajane lagi….
mere aankhon ke palkon ne bhi  jukne se bagwat kar di
kaash ye pal ruk jaye, kaash tum tahar jao
kaash thodi zindgi aur jee loon
kaash thodi khusi aur paa loon
aaj khuda se bus yehi ibbadat hai
aaj na barsat jaye aur na hi tum…
Ek roj aachanak se meri zindgi me aaye tum bilkul barsat ki tarah….

 

 

Phir kyun yaad aate ho tum…

Phir kyun yaad aate ho tum…
ratton ke andhere me…
akele me…
ya mele me…
shor me ….
ya sannate me..
Phir kyun yaad aate ho tum …
Phir kyun yaad aate ho tum …

jab tumne kah diya ki pyar nehi hai…
aur humse koi karar nehi hai…
to fikr ki wajah kya hai
ya bata do meri khatah kya hai…
sanse ab girte hain, uthti hain aur ,sambhalti hai
aankhen siskati hai, tarasti hain aur barasti hai…
din ka chain nehi ,aur raat ka karar nehi
sab kuch dhoondhla sa aur bujha huwa hai
na chirag hai ,na roshni hai ,na dhoop hai aur nahi ujala hai
ab to sirf dard hai, dukh hai, kahmosi hai ,aur sannata hai
tumko mujhpe aaitbar nehi
phir kyun yaad aate ho tum…
Phir kyun yaad aate ho tum …

Dil ki dhadkano ka shor..
aur dimag ki nason ka jhor…
jab uljhati hain mujhe…
band aankhon me bhi aake tum jab lalchati hai mujhe…
jab bandh hoton se maan pukarta hai tujhe…
Dono hathon ko jod ke aatma swikarta hai tujhe…
Phir kyun ahsas huwa hain guum..
Phir kyun yaad aate ho tum….
Phir kyun yaad aate ho tum …

ab na kashti hai na musafir hai na hi kinara hai…
ab na mahfil hai na sham hai na hi koi ishara hai..
ab na wo jaam hai na hi wo muskurahat hai na wo julfon ki sarsarahat hai..
per phir bhi, phir sirf tum
sirf yaad aate ho tum…

 

 

The Farewell

It was her last day in office.Some of them were writing farewell quotes and best wishes on her last card.some were asking what should be your new carrer aspiration.some were asking why you are leaving the job without having an MBA admission or a new job.some were telling her that she has become a very good friend more than colleague and gone miss her humor,presence of mind and her bubbly character. But She was emotionless that day,if someone ask how she is feeling ,she was replying i am feeling nothing,i am feeling like it is just one more day, i am not feeling that from tomorrow ,i am not going to swipe my card ,write an oracle or DB2 queries or login into putty again or run command on the black screen.She was thinking about him only who was sitting on the corner desk ,putting his head down and crying in silence,for whom she was not sure that she loved him or not.She was thinking how to handle the many things that is coming today for her departure,it may be last meeting with the mentors from whom  she learnt a lot ,few breakout coffee friends  with whom she talked her heart out or how to leave and say last goodbye to him whom she sometimes  she loved and sometime she did not because of the struggle between her heart and mind.whatever love that she got from others the day was his ,he was going to feel the journey of true love which involves also the care, commitment for the day ,separation and unbearable pain that love gives,waiting  eyes,silence for the lifetime,last day to see her and her “true emotions for him” also.somewhere in the mind she was also loving him like a true lover on her last day.

As promised,she was going to give dinner treat after office today,every close ones were invited including him.All needs to go by office bus only since the venu was far ,she came to him and asked that can you help me by asking driver bhiya that we can take few of our friends today on bus because you have good relation with him and seats are always empty,if one day he can manage,on my last day we can all go together for dinner. He said ok,and because of his helping nature and  friendship with everyone driver bhiya easily allowed and all went together in the same bus. She softly also whispered into  his ears that i want to sit together with you in the bus. His voice choked,he can’t utter a single word,his head nodded for yes for those kind words and tears trickled on his cheek.

At that day bus was full don’t know from where that rush came and few old people were also standing.Bus stared , he was having window seat and she was sitting beside him.Both of them were not taking there was a pin drop silence between them.Both were incapable at that moment what to say ?. He decided to look out of the window but at that day ,road and lake beside that road  was also speaking each and every moments that they have spent together ,their good times,happy days. Places where panipuri was eaten ,chai samosa,kulfi, faluda,momos,kebabs or treats that they have given and taken from each other. He was seeing  her in imagination at every places where they have visited together.

In every place,in every situation there is a person who is kabab me haddi that is their presence is not required and they are meant for destroying the moments. At that day , also from bus one of them appeared and started flirting with her not knowing that it was her last day.she got irriated and asked that person to shut his mouth. Then, She turned her head  spoke the word with lot of intensity , dam mm i am going you will not talk with me.He replied in the husky voice i cannot see you going like this. With these words again there was again 2 minutes silence between them.she spoke in anger what to do, my sister has done love marriage and she has lot of problems.My parents want me to do arrange marriage and they started searching boy for me.My sister has disappointed them and i am only hope for their respect.So whom i love does not matter ,how i love that does not matter ,my carrier ,my goals ,my ambition does not matter.For me only, the happiness of my parents matter and i will sacrifice everything for them.Only thing that i want more is  to delay this ,if i will continue doing job they will marry me next year and i am not ready for this.I want sometime since at least i can live a little life so i want to go home back ,prepare for MBA for one year and then join the college and enjoy my life for 2 years. I don’t know whom with i will be married after this 3 years, how the person will be ,how their parents will be if they will good then i can adjust and live but if they are not i need to suffer whole life for that i want this 3 years of life so that i can enjoy 1 year of family life with my parents and 2 years of college life again. He told softly , if this is the reason for leaving job and doing masters, i think this is not correct.She replied back this is india and here this only happens and it happens with every girl from middle class family and i have accepted my fate. we need to follow the society in which we live and this is only the rule of game for this country. He again spoke slowly , just had a word with them they are your parents ,india is changing might be their mindset has changed. She said back ,it is not possible . She will not change and for them my marriage is last responsibility for them and i can not be a reason for their unhappiness. He asked you will sacrifice your whole life. She told yes , its my life ,my circumstances  and my decision and i have full right to choose. He replied without any argument ,yes every individual have the right choose and decide about their life.

Suddenly a very old senior  came near them and both of them knew that senior and he was not well .He with respect left the seat and old senior was having window seat now.She spoke again and told she will miss you and please take care of you.with time you will forget everything and what you feel today you will not feel after and year . Time heals everything.So, just let time to take care of everything. I am also feeling bad but i can’t do anything.From love+life and respect for my parents  in my society i need to choose one and i have chosen. He replied i can’t see you leaving ,not this way, i don’t have courage to come to your farewell dinner  ,my house is near to restaurant where we will have dinner and i will get off bus and go home.If i will go, i will cry in-front of everyone , i can’t control my emotions. She told that party will not happen without you.As usual their was so much traffic, she closed her eyes for some relief and went into power snap.His bus stop came and his mind and heart both was telling to not go to party so taking the advantage that she is sleeping he got down at his stop telling others that he has some urgent work and can not join the evening dinner.

He reached home , he packed his room and became a body without soul and with little glass of the window he was looking towards garden silently. Mind ,heart and senses all gone numb.On the other side,Bus reached the  near destination(restaurant)  and everyone get off. She searched for him and could not find him and got anxious,she asked everyone where is he ,some one told her that he has some urgent work and he is not coming. At that moment,team ,party ,farewell all was immaterial for her ,she only wants his presence.she gently asked everyone to go upstairs ,start the party and order the  starters. she will come after a phone call.

Party was one the 2nd floor, she was one first floor ,she started calling him. He decided not to pick up the phone because he love her too much that he can’t let her go like this for the reasons that he don’t understand to be correct .she was playing with her life and he has no right to say something since she was her point of view  that it was her life and she has every decision to take in her life it may be right or wrong and she was correct.He was thinking why so much education from childhood when after all we need to follow the wrong things ,we need to follow and carry the old culture which is not correct always,  it may be right for some person but everyone is different and situations for every individual is also different.He was thinking if  after so much education and experience of life will we not bring  change to the society then who will? who will change the country from the evil roots of caste,religion,region,language and also from sacrificing  for the carrier that is sin in terms of modern and developed society where everyone is equal and every individual should have equal opportunity irrespective of gender also.

From the ground floor, she was calling again again ,and count of miss calls reached to more than 100. Her control on emotions which she was showing from last 2 years ,vanished in a moment .she started behaving like insane. She took the first auto what she can get and want to reach his apartment as soon as possible. From the 2nd floor someone called her and ask that come soon starter has came . she told that person please start enjoying your starter , i will come soon.(Inside herself she told go to hell bastard) . She reached down to his apartment, with the garden view he saw her coming . She stopped in the garden and messaged him that i am in garden if you not pickup the call or come down i will come to your flat. she called again  told to come in 5 minutes ,if he will not come then she is also not going to her own farewell party and she started crying. In fraction of seconds he was in-front of her , he wiped her tears and told don’t cry, i will come with you and i will not show any emotions . I love you truly this means i can sacrifice my anything for your happiness , i know that your parents are very important to you and i accept every decision what you decide because i can not see tears in your eyes.

He took and auto and both reached to the party venue. He told everyone that his urgent work was finished and she told it was a quite a long call with the family and asked sorry for delay. In the meantime the starters were finished and their was time for main course , some genius who was very hungry  ordered.While waiting for the main course they had their happy moments with lot of selfies and group photographs,chats ,blessings,fun. In the deserts everyone order different things but two of them ordered tender coconut which both of them love together. It was the last meal in the Mumbai that they relished together , after that they never meet.Never meet ever in whole  life.Never spoken on phone call.The goodbye from the farewell that he heard was the last goodbye for him. The last thing that he did for her was stopped an auto for her and last time he saw her was riding an auto leaving him for whole life. It was all about “The Farewell”.

In our live everyone is not blessed to have true love. If you feel that you are getting true love do not disrespect that .Only few of very very special and lucky once have chance to love back and live together.Don’t leave best in the search of better.Be kind ,accept the true love, live happy, enjoy each and every moment of life.You need to decide that one life we have got and what we want from that ?  with whom we want to live , the person who love us most or the person whom we have got as an illness of society ?